Today, I had to download this song and save it into my usb for french. And when I opened my usb stuff for the first time since last year, i saw some very old artwork that i thought i lost permanently. I smiled and looked at how much improvement I have made. They brought back so many memories and I couldn’t help but laugh at myself for thinking that those pieces were my peak. It never seems to end, my progress. I always wonder when I’ll be at my ultimate high as an artist. These old pictures made my day, too. Lately, I’ve been at my lowest point where I’m just crying every single night and feeling miserable in school. At one point in 6th period, I contemplated about ending it all. But the drawings really gave me a reason to keep pushing on. I will be living to see the greatest improvement in my art. 

I barely have any energy and I have all these things to do. I am about to cry OTL

Happy Mother’s Day to all of the mothers and motherly figures around the world (: 

Glad to be done APUSH orz, 30+ weeks of ghey notes, tests, and occasional ghey long term assignments are finally done C’: now I have to prepare for SATS, AP English, and anatomy orz 

and then my throat is getting progressively worse D: At first it was somewhat tolerable, and now it’s difficult to inhale, swallow, and eat ;______; fuck everythinggggg 

on a lighter note, I really love how the weather is right now C: And Korra is super duper awesome :D

gahhh this week has been fucked up by cahsee -____- I honestly can’t keep track of time and I don’t feel like myself D:

first period was not actually boring for the first time. did critique on an artwork and got so much to say about it. I felt really blunt with what I had to say, but I tried my best to be nice, too loool I got some compliments for my own drawing, I can’t wait to read it next week C:

and second wasn’t so bad, even the philosophy quiz wasn’t really that difficult, either. just gotta work on essay now! 

third period never seemed to end OTL all we did was go through the rest of the packet. tiringgggggg

during fourth,we had a sub :C but helped a classmate study for apush. gotta study for ch 7 test very sooooon. My 85 is on the line d:

spent the whole lunch helping that classmate out C: but my tummy started to hurt OTL 

did the test for all of fifth, I think I did pretty good, there was like 6 questions i wasn’t sure of at all LOL ohwelll, but my pain in my tummy just wouldn’t stop, it was a sharp pain, too. 

but everything was all good for sixth period, caught up majorly, thank you so much ms westover! just two more muscles and then we need to get on cleaning and some more skinning. my stomach stopped hurting, too. 

I wished it didn’t rain so much D:

updateupdateupdate!

First period was boring as hell, all we did was presentations. Everything in this class is just so unnecessary that I’m about to flip a desk over. Benefit was that I got to advance more on apush notes 

Second period was filled with more presentations and was equally boring. I have so much stuff to prepare for if I ever want to raise that B LOL why work whyyyy but I enjoyed reading Beloved, despite all the reference to sex

During third period, I don’t understand why people (fwnekrjwlirFRESHMEN) are so fucking hurt, calm down you guys it’s just a game to train you into writing passe simple, its not the fucking world cup 

it was in fourth period when I finished a very large bulk of apush notes. if I finished them earlier, class would have been boring af. and right now I don’t feel like finishing hw that’s not even due tomorrow, but I must so I can derp the whole period tomorrow!

lunch was when I entirely finished apush notes, it was also when I had to hear something that made me think now that I should be careful of what I wish for

fifth tends to be a joke, ffff I was hoping she would fucking check notes, fuck man I finished your shit now give me a fucken smiley face  ლ(இ益இლ), but fifth was also awkward, too because of what I heard today that I didn’t want to hear at all.

ffffff sixth period was slow, we have yet to label the rectus abdominis and the  muscles demonstrated today. I hope we can progress more tomorrow. the most annoying part was to deal with a certain someone who keeps being a sass-master towards me -________-

I’m glad today is done, I really want the week to go slower. I feel like there’s so  much to take in, but the time for it isn’t enough for me.

Not feeling so great, could it be salmonella??? D:

My collection of thoughts for this whole week C:

Glad this week is about to end, I’m just super tired after staying up late each day trying to get work done. I really need to find a way to gain weight because nothing I’m doing works D:< I’m surprised Mr. Bray Bray is not all up in my grill during 4th; but now this makes me work harder and stay on task just in case he decides to spot check… I think I’m sick, I hope it’s not salmonella or anything. I wish aunty and mum would stop making fun of me for getting sick after dissecting a wing, jaysusman all this “pffffsh so i dissected a goat” is not funny D:< Why can’t I draw anymore -___- lastly, how do people suddenly think I’m puerto rican, sri lankan half black, mexican, filipino, ETHIOPIAN, or indian. I really we would all stop using race to identify people. And that is why I don’t go and be a fijian loud and proud.

looking at the vintage floral patterns on tumblr made me wish spring would come faster! I just love the warmth and brightness and the fashion of spring